I am so sorry that you had such terrible experience. I suggest that you contact your previous provider, or seek out a new psych md. From the time you meet with the doc, he can evaluate your condition, provide meds if needed & refer you to a therapist to tune up on the coping skills. There is nothing wrong with being on meds, if they can help your situation. You should not have to suffer, and help is out there for the asking. Good luck & wish you the best!

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