Devinmom,

I am just being a whiner. lol

It's just that I always think of everyone else and make sure their holidays are special. As a matter of fact, on Friday I threw a 21st party for our second to oldest. We had it at a local eatery/pub during their Karaoke night. He stayed long enough to eat and get his card with $$ in it, and then left after a half hour later. I told dh that I am so glad that we had not hired a DJ like we were planning and renting out the private room they have upstairs. So it just really saddened me when I talked to him last night and he said that 8:00 am was too early to go out for breakfast. Sooo we've changed it to 9:00 am, and now he can't be reached.

Then I have my troubled son call me up yesterday to tell me how he and his girlfriend have been evicted, how he was living in a crack house selling crack for a week....... I asked him why he was telling me these things (he seems to always do that when I talk to him), and told him I was getting his dad to talk to him. I explained that I don't wnat to be getting a phone call saying he was found dead in a ditch somewhere, and it saddens me when he tells me things like this. And the "F" bomb he kept dropping when he was talking to me was absolutely unsettling.

Then my oldest son went to Iowa last week to be with his girlfriend all week. He didn't show up for his brothers party on Friday and when I called him last night to tell him about breakfast for Mother's Day, he said he wouldn't be making it, but we can all go out for dinner when he gets back. ????

I told my dh that what this all boils down to is that plans were never made, and at the last minute I am the one trying to pull it all together. I told him how upset I was with him about this, that he didn't take the time to make sure that plans were made. I mean, last Father's Day, I planned a weekend campout for him. The boys were involved, etc, etc.

I am just whining. That is all. It just makes me sad. I have never, ever been one to voice discontent over a holiday or not being thought of, but this year I am finding out that I am. Not sure why, I feel kind of guilty, and maybe a part of me is taking it personally that they didn't call to make plans or take the initiative to do something for me. Like, what have I done wrong, KWIM?

Guess I should just be thankful, go out to breakfast this morning with my youngest and my second to youngest (who did answer my message and called this morning and said he would be here). That to me is awesome. I mean, he is dropping everything at the last minute to be with me.

I hope that everyone else has a wonderful day!!!! Sorry to be the rain on such a beautiful day. I think I am being the thread downer, and I am sorry.