Hi. I just need to vent a little...

Last Monday about 130pm. I left my house for 4-5 minutes to ship some stuff at Post office...2 blocks away. I came home to my house on fire. I ran in and up the stairs to find my cat on the bathtub looking into the smoke (fire in bathroom)...I really didn't see fire just alittle glint of orange...Waist up full of black smoke. My dogs (Lab/Fox Hound & Golden Retriever) were in our bedroom...Complete opposite of bathroom. (2 rooms between them)...I called them & called them...They woldn't come..I couldnt see. I ran out called 911...Went back in for them and screamed and screamed. I went in the house at least 4 times until water started coming thru kitchen ceiling (bathroom above).

Fire chief said it took them 9 mins. from call to them being there...I live 5 houses from fire hall. Basically we lost everything that mattered to us...My 2 beautiful dogs died as they slept from smoke poisoning under my bed. I am sick. I am beside myself. My daughter was at school. My husband was at school/work.

I had 2 candles burning. 1 in bathroom 1 in dining room. I blew out bathroom & put lid on dining room one. They were both Yankee. When I lit it it was pretty close to being 'out'...I figured I would just let it burn itself out then throw it away. How i wish i would have just thrown it away and didn't light it. Here is another whole thing... that candle was about 5 yrs. old and i never lit until just recently..I don't know if the glass could have weakened over that time????

The fire chief said, after I blew it out it was probably still so hot it broke out the bottom of the glass...the wax dripped onto our towels and that is how it started. There is totally no bathroom but the whole upstairs is smoke damaged. 1st floor & basement water damaged.

If you ever think of all the chemicals you have in the bathroom...My husband has a cool water cologne collection going on, I had a couple perfumes. My daughter has braces so she has that special peroxyl mouthwash.

I did get my turtle out of the tank in the dining room. The cat was later found in the basement. But no one can make me feel better about my dogs. I can't believe they have been gone a week now. i can't shut my eyes at night. I cry whenever i think of them. It makes me sick. They were both only 2 yrs. old. I feel so bad I did this to them. I wish I would have been home. I knew where our fire exstinguishers are. Even if it started and we still lost everything...Maybe the I could have gottne my dogs. They like to nap as any dog does...So I just hope they never knew what hit them. I love them so much. They are missed very very much.

We do have a pet funeral/cremetory here. We got to view them on Wed. They were gorgeous (they weren't burned or anything like that-fire never left the bathroom). They were later cremated. They are now back with me.

We lost all our clothing...Next to the bathroom was our computer room. (1 desktop). I sell on ebay...So it had many many items in there...(we lost our home and business). My daughters door was shut so she has smoke damage on many items, but her room is the only room upstairs that is not black. Our bedroom was destroyed. Our window was open and probably pulled the fire right thru the house. We had a flat screen tv, blu ray player, ps3, directv tivo box, and 2 laptops in our room. Mine was open and basically right in the doorway since I had been working on ebay and was only leaving for a few minutes. My daughters laptop & desktop made it (we think). You don't know what you got going until you are living out of garbage bags and boxe of stuff that is just ruined. You can't touch anything without being black.

My hands will still not come clean. We have been tyring to get out of the house what we can.I am 27, my husband 29 our daughter 8. My mother owned the house...She had ins. on the house and appliances. But we didn't have renters ins. So we have nothing. Our bedroom furniture is gone...as is our couch. We have the dining room set, china cupboard, dishwasher, fridge, & oven left. and Cal's bedroom set.

Everyone wants to help us...there is nothing they can do. They want to give us money and stuff and I just don't want it...I jsut want to go home. I just want my dogs. I shut my eyes and I can see them or I relive that day when I was screaming for them.

My poor cat is like a vampire now. He only comes out of the basement at night. He lost his 2 best friends. He now lives with my moms toothless cat who growls at him. He was once a very vocal loving playful cat. He is just a baby too...They all grew up together...They were all 2 yrs. old.

My poor dogs trusted me to protect them and love them forever and i'm the idiot who lights the candle and they die. Everyone tells me not to blame myself...but how can't you? I just want them back. Why did I have to leave at that time? They say God does everything for a reason...But why this? what did i do so wrong that He had to take my dogs away? So beautiful and playful and lovable. They meant the world to all of us.

All of my duaghters Webkinz (about 35 that still had tags got ruined in the coputer room -the covetted Love Puppy & Sherbert Bunny that I wold never let her register) are now black. I ruined all of our lives.

We are staying with my mother...She is making me more than crazy. I have been washing clothes that were in the dressers...The smell won't come out..i'm washing the same things at least 3 times.

Anyone know what I can do to get the smoke smell out? I know certain fabrics it just in't going to come out of?

We had tickets to see the musical Wicked on Wed. night and just didn't go. We had Steelers tickets for tonight..I made my husband go and he took his brother. I just want my dogs. I know i've said that so many times...but the pet owners out there understand.

My daughter goes to a small private school and they are absolutely wonderful. They have been very supportive and I'm very glad we have htem.

sorry this is so long..But it is good to get it out...

Everyone please pray for us...We need it right now.
~Christy