Christy,
I am so sorry to read about your terribly sad mishap. I, too, would be devastated with the loss of a beloved pet. I know you feel a sense of guilt, but try hard to let that go as it was an accident. I think you need to go out and get a puppy to help ease your healing process. I try to put myself in your shoes, and I think that it would help me.

Very recently, we lost half of our house due to a flood. It has been devastating, but thankfully, no one was hurt and we didn't lose our dog. As bleak as it looks at times, I try real hard to look at the positive. Take it day by day; slowly things will get better. Keep us updated on your move to the other house.

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