Nope it is not hon, I had a friend I hosted for his site on pogo, he too suffered from BP Terribly and was really mean and hateful to us all on his bad days. I talked and talked to him about changing or even staying on his meds. This went on for the 2 years I was his host and nothing changed. He would even go so far as to call me sometimes at 2 AM knowing that I didn't allow calls after 8 Pm. Finally I just told him he was too much stress in my life and till he did something to help himself I couldn't be his yelling bag any longer. That has been 3 years now and I don't talk to him nor does he talk to me. However, Some of the old host has told me he has not changed 1 bit over the years, he still takes his meds when HE wants too and his moods are still as bad as they were years ago when we all hosted together. So no I can't blame you 1 bit. In my case 1 friend is here in real life and the other case is just a on line friend that I tried to be friendly with and help host his site for tourneys. In his case he wasn't as important to me to keep putting up with his abuse. In the other case she was and still is.