Yep, I know the feeling of the support from the last people you would ever expect it from.I can relate to your life on so many levels it's like taking a look at myself 23 years ago.and you bet there IS a light at the end of that tunnel and once you see and walk thru it you will never be the same ever again. your whole look on your NEW life will be AWESOME !. I promise you will never walk in those shoes again, Your pass will remind you of what you left and will never return to again. Those " Missed " signs now will be crystal clear from now on. You will know right off what doesn't seem right and also have the knowledge to accept it will not change and NOTHING you do will change it. Your life is like a rebirth again from your happy childhood. I knew with in 2 days with my husband our marriage would be strong, but it was ALL because of my past and it will be the same with you also. You will have bumps but nothing you can't over come and grow stronger from. You stay on track and keep what you know is RIGHT to do close by, If you even get the thoughts you want to " try " again take out that notebook and write down every single thing that made you want to leave to start with. I promise you will close it fast and go forward again...

here's you a picker upper for the day. I have always had very high re-guards for you and a lot of respect. I have not found many time if any what I didn't agree with you. At times your post are the 1st I look for when I log on.

You hang in there.. The rainbow awaits you at the end of that tunnel.
Came back to say. those tears you had in the past will seem less and less each passing day and before you know if you will wonder why you ever shed them to start with. I went fform crying , to hurt, to feeling sorry for myself, back to tears , to mad as hell and then 1 day it all just went away.It will be the same for you too. You just remember you DO have friends here that care and will always have a open ear and a shoulder for you on those days.