To answer some of your questions...

Bio mom is ok and that's it. These kids are her possessions. It's all about "doing" and not about loving on them. She has some real problems and they are made to feel guilty when expressing love for others that she doesn't approve of. "don't you love mommy?" kind of thing. She is very narcissitic.

I spoke with Faith for about 5 seconds today and she sounded ok. "hi mama, I'm sitting on the couch" then bio pretty much said bye and hung up.

I do pray she will decide that it is too much, but I don't know if her pride would let her let go.

I have lost my mother, brother and others close to me. That was different because they were just gone, no going back. There is still this little bit of hope I have that she will come back, and that is almost harder.

My dear neice is picking me up today and we are going camping till Sunday. It will be nice to get away, but I'm afraid she will call while I'm gone to say come get her. I know that is ridiculous, but still....

I know there are those here that have lost children........I cannot imagine the pain because this is hidious.

Thank you all SO much for your support, I know it will get easier.

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Melissa