Monday Morning Blues

What do they say: rainy days and Mondays always get me down?
Well, normally neither bother me too much and it's not raining but today is the first day of school! On a Monday??? What a way to start a week. I offically have a 4th grader and 2nd grader. It sure was hard to wake up early, shower, dress, make breakfast(which wasn't eaten because of nerves), pack lunches, take the obligatory first day of school pictures, try to help calm nerves while battling my own case of the butterflies and doing all of this before 7:00 when we left for school.
My 9 year old was having a rough time this morning. Her nerves had been bad for about a week and starting about Thursday, last week, they were very bad. She was close to being sick this morning, poor baby. She's never been like this. I'm not sure exactly what was going on with her. I don't know if she's changing and the horomones have the best of her or if this has to do with being insecure right now because of the impending divorce. Whatever the cause, she was upset but trying so hard to be strong. I know she'll be fine. In fact, it's after 8:00 now and she's probably already fine.
My 7 year old said she was nervous but certainly acted fine. She was all decked out in her new Hello Kitty outfit, a borrowed necklace and bracelet from me, new shoes and a huge smile. She wasn't able to eat though so I know she must have been nervous some. She told me not to walk her in this morning because that would embarrass her, LOL. My oldest wanted me to walk her in but I knew that would make matters worse for her so I told her to go in today alone...that was tough for me to do but I really did do it for her good.
The first day of school brings different emotions or feelings for everyone. Some are anxious for their kids to get back to school because all summer the parents have heard "I'm bored" or they've listened to the constant fighting and bickering among siblings or they just like the routine that school brings. Others aren't too anxious about school starting because they know that adds more to their already busy schedule, homework to help with, lunches to pack and school functions to attend. Some enjoy the summer schedule, staying up later, waking up later, not rushing to get out the front door and maybe just a more relaxed feeling. And still others just miss their kids. I fall somewhere in all of these groups. My kids have had days of bickering and getting on my nerves and I wished for school to start. I do accomplish more when they're in school so I like that school schedule...for a while. Then again, I love the relaxed feeling of no homework to deal with during the summer, staying up a little later, sleeping in and having some fun activities while they're out of school. But I totally miss my kids when they're at school.
Today will be a long day for me. I'll clock watch all day, just waiting for 2:00 to appear on my clock. I do have some errands to run and I'm hoping that will pass some of the day a little faster. But until 2:00, I'll think about my "growing up too quickly" girls who are having their first day of school as a 2nd and 4th grader. I hope they have a wonderful day. And as if tradition for me, I pick up some cupcakes, a couple of balloons and small gift for when they get home......just a reminder to them, that I thought about them on their first day of school!
For now, I'll go watch the clock!