Reflections

As both of my daughters have birthdays coming up soon, it's put me in a very reflective mood. It doesn't help that my oldest daughter, who will be 10 on June 23, is almost as tall as me. Granted, I'm short(or undertall as I prefer to call it)but does she have to remind me EVERYDAY that she's almost as tall as me? Really, is that necessary? So anyway, she's developing, she's growing, she's maturing and I just wonder where the time went. I hear people say this all the time and now I hear myself saying it, thinking it. She's such a great helper to me. She's growing up and I know she needs me less but she's still clingy, still loves to be affectionate and for now she still likes to be babied, just not in front of her friends!
My youngest will be 8 on July 11th. She too is growing up. She's petite so I don't think she'll outgrow me quite so early. I see her sweet little personality growing and changing every day. She has an innocence that my oldest never had. I love the person she is. She loves to make people laugh. And yet she has this very shy, quiet side. She's adventurous but cautious. She's just wonderful. And she too likes to be babied.
Each day as they grow and change and mature, I realize there will come a time, a day, when they'll move out of my house. That thought just paralyzes me. I want them to grow, to become who they want to be, to live life to the fullest and I know that means leaving my home at some point. But, I know they'll never leave my heart...NEVER. I read a sentence on a blog the other day that was so sweet...the woman has an adopted child and is now pregnant and she was talking about how much each child meant to her, one being homegrown and one being heartgrown....such a sweet sentiment.
No matter where my kids go in life, no matter what they become, I will always love them. I do hope they make good decisions and become respectable women and though I may not always agree with everything they do or every choice they make, I will always love them.
I posted about my oldest daughter's upcoming birthday a few days ago but for some reason it's not showing up unless you click on June posts and then on the 9th on the calendar....anyway, I will post something in honor of my daughter each day for 10 days starting on the 14th. Since she will be 10 years old this year, I want to post a memory, a thought or something to her/for her on those days. Until then I will continue to reflect on the joy that these two girls have brought me. I will try to live in the moment, for the moment rather than thinking too far into the future.