Fast Forward

Do you ever have days, weeks, months or even years that you wish you could just fast forward through? I've had plenty of days and months like that. At least moments in days or weeks that I'd like to forget or just get through and get to the next point of life.
This week has been a week I'd like to forget many parts of. There were moments when I thought I just couldn't handle one more problem. There were seconds that I thought I'd have to sit down and just have a good cry. I won't go into my sappy details of life as they're very personal but suffice it to say I'm glad tomorrow is Friday, I'm glad this week is almost over and it can't get much worse than this past week. I remind myself that while things were horrible, I still had lights of hope. I have these two precious children that pick my spirits up just by their existence. I have these adorable guinea pigs that make me laugh when I really want to cry. I have the BEST parents in the whole world. They support me in so many ways and let me just feel like a kid again when I must. And I'm alive, I'm healthy and so are my kids. I realize that while moments get tough, days get hard and weeks become oh so long, that I'm still lucky to have all that I have in life. I really have to push myself hard to see any positive when things go like they have lately.
But hey, it can only get better, as my mom says. She's right. Should I look forward to that? Or should I worry that one more thing may possibly go wrong? I'll go with the flow. I'm a fighter, I'm a survivor and this will all pass. I guess rather than worrying about fast forwarding through these difficult times, I should view them as defining moments in my life. For these are the times, the moments, that make me dig deep and find my strength, it makes me look at what I do have and feel blessed and it makes the small problems just that, SMALL and it reminds to not sweat the little things in life but to save my energy and strength for these tough times.
I know soon enough I'll look back on these times and think "wow, I made it". I've done that many times in the past couple of years. I'll look back and know that if I can survive these moments, I can survivie anything. And I'll be glad to look back on this week and know it's in the past! But if I had a fast forward button for life right now, I'd use it.