Well, I thought I would let those of you who know about our sweet Faith, what is going on.

Tomorrow we have a hearing at which we will find out when she will be leaving us. Bio has fulfilled all that's been asked of her, and she will be getting her girls back. We have had Faith since she was 5 and half months old, and she just turned 3 last Sunday. We are all she's ever known, but the law is the law and there is no other ruling possible. Bio did agree to let us have another week (well 2 weeks then called back and said one is enough) and to let our subsequent visits be more than over night. We are so thankful for that.

Please pray for us tomorrow, it's going to be impossibly hard. And while we will grieve our loss of her, she will have no clue why we've let her go. I wish she could understand, but she can't. But, God has been faithful so far, and I know He will continue to be faithful. Thank you in advance.

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Melissa

I can't imagine your pain and anger at what's going on.
Please know that I'll be thinking of you and offer a quick prayer that you have the strength to withstand this trying time.

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Mental that one, I'm telling you. ---Ron Weasley, "Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets"

Oh my goodness. I'll keep you, your family, and Faith in my prayers. I'm sure it will be a bumpy road for you. Hugs to you.

Actually we are doing ok, today, right this moment. The only explanation I have for that is that we have many, many people praying for us. It's been a very rough road, and I'm sure there are tough days coming, but we are so busy trying to enjoy her, it's been ok. It's just one day at a time....

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Melissa

Bless your heart, Melissa - I'm so sorry. What a difficult, difficult thing.

God will bless you for the good start you have given her......Prayers for you.

momrajum, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm so glad you can look forward already to making the most of the subsequent visits. My heart is breaking for you. Saying a prayer that the bond that your family has with Faith will get you all through this.

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"The errors of faith are better than the best thoughts of unbelief." - Thomas Russell

What a beautiful, generous thing you have done for that little girl. Giving everything of yourself, knowing she may leave you some day. I am happy you will still be able to be a part of her life, albeit a much smaller part. Will be thinking of you, saying a prayer.

This must be so hard, but when things get rough remember that you did a very special thing that will mold her life.

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:::hugs:::

Thank you all for your kind words and prayers. The prayers were felt today. Court was fine and uneventful. Some of the acrimony is gone because bio has "won". She said we can see her whenever we want. Faith will be officially leaving us on the 24th of this month. 10 days. Then we have 5 day visits once a month for 3 months. After that we'll see how it goes.

I can't believe she'll be leaving. At 43, I have some rearranging to do with my life. I"ve never been anything but a mom. I wonder what God has in store for me....

My DD is buying a house in Virginia and wants me to come. It will be shortly after our first visit with Faith so I will probably be doing some traveling, Lord willing.

I want you guys to know I haven't shed a tear all day, till I came here. It's ok, I'm feelin' the love. thanks again

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Melissa

I'm so glad to hear that you're doing ok. When I read your initial post, I actually got chills on my arms. I can't imagine going through what you have gone through yesterday. I'm glad that you'll still be able to see her. Stay strong...you sound like a wonderful and caring person. She is so lucky to have you in her life. ~Lisa

With me having an almost 3 year old, I have always related to you. I just can't imagine what you are going thru. Thank God, that precious baby has had the wonderful , strong start that you and your family have given her.

Just keep praying, you never know what what God has in store for us, nor the reasons. Love that baby. She needs you now more than ever.

Hugs to you and her!!!!

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My heart just breaks for you. I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and little Faith.. I hope the transition is as smooth as possible for the both of you.

Wow, what a story. You are so strong. I am so sorry she will be leaving you, and even at her young age, I am sure she will always remember your compassion, your love, and your kindness. I am sure that you had a lot to do with her bio mom wanting to get her act together. You have changed lives! You have been a blessing! Come to Virginia; it's a great place to be....

I'm so sorry to hear of this turn of events, Melissa. Your presence in Faith's life has been a God-send. Good thoughts for you, her, and her bio-mom. Keep the faith and keep your chin up.

cj/

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I was walking home one night and a guy hammering on a roof called me a paranoid little weirdo. In morse code. -Emo Phillips

Girl, I am so sorry and I wish I could find words to comfort you. I can't begin to imagine how you feel. I had a student for only 2 days and he is moving to another class due to overflow and I am heart broken. You just have to remember what a wonderful start you have given her and pray for her future.

I thought about being a foster parent, but I am not strong enough. I am getting ready to become a CASA volunteer and wonder if I am even tough enough for that.

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"When you're drowning, you don't say 'I would be incredibly pleased if someone would have the foresight to notice me drowning and come and help me,' you just scream."

John Lennon