| Reflection blog--just wanted to share. Kinda long
Okay...I am the oldest person on MySpace! LOL! But I wanted to share a blog I posted because it made me think.--Marilou
REMINDERS
My question is actually to myself: How many reminders must I have to finally decide to live each day moment by moment? I received an email this morning from a friend who found out yesterday that her sister-in-law, age 28, committed suicide. She didn't know any details but was flying back into the states to be with her brother and family. She, of course, was devastated...and once again, I started thinking about how precious, fragile, and limited life is. What bothers me, however, is that it takes something like that to jolt me into reality; that shouldn't have to happen.
Even at my age, I am constantly putting things off. It's the whole, "I'll do it tomorrow" syndrome. But, like Jason reminded me the other day, "What if tomorrow never comes?" I'm not sayng to spend your entire life savings today (which for me would be $4.95!), but to do simple things like tell your friends that you love them, meet them somewhere for lunch, send a silly text message, do a random act of kindness for someone (even a stranger), or even just return a favor.
I've always been guilty of killing time one day just waiting for the next. That really doesn't make sense. Yes, I believe in making plans and anticipating those events, but I want to learn how to enjoy the moments leading up to them. Having grandchildren is helping me with that, but I wish I would have done it earlier. However, there was always dinner to be cooked, beds to be changed, clothes to be washed, meetings to be attended, deadlines to meet...and I missed so much and I ignored the moments. Sometimes things can be put on hold to play in the rain, take a walk with your kids, play a goofy board game, or just lay out in the grass and look the clouds...just enjoying life..
I shudder to think that something could happen to those closest to me right now, and I had missed the opportunity to let them know how special they are to me. I know it's not possible to do everything that comes your way, but wouldn't it be nice if we could make every day special in some way, listen to every problem a friend wants to share with us, and take every opportunity to enjoy our children, our lovers, our friends, our grandchildren, and the rest of our family. Once again, I'm going to make an effort to do that on a daily bases.
So...if you're on my friends list, you have impacted my life in one way or another, and I want you to know that I love you. Some of you know me only from the web; others know me through mutual friends...but, whoever you are, I pray that I can make your life a better happier, a little sweeter, a little more enjoyable. I'm learning so much about myself through things that are happening at the moment, and one thing I've discovered is that my love REALLY is unconditional. If you've disappointed me or let me down, I still love you. If we've lost touch and don't visit like we used to, I still love you, too. I hope that works both ways.
And, starting today, I promise to make it different. I really, really do...before the next reminder
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