I cannot believe that today 5-4-09 makes 7 years that my beautiful brother Sonny passed away 5-4-02... It is as if sometimes time stands still and that perhaps it really did not happen, then I realize it did. As I sit here and type this message there truly are no words except to say I miss him dearly and if the love I had for him would have saved him he never would have gone to heaven. I guess in the end God needed him more so as a family who loved him dearly we had to let him go..... I wanted so bad to go to the cemetary as I always do on this day however it just poured so hard. I just decided to go and visit with my parents because I know for them the pain is much greater, should no one person here ever know the pain of lossing a child. I decided I will go on Saturday and bring his favorite his pale yellow roses. I am grateful for the time we had together and wish for anyone who has siblings to experience the bond we had. He truly was more then a brother, he was my best friend. While I do have 3 more brothers me and Sonny were always extremely close. We could talk on the phone for hours and not even realize the time . He was my dd's Caitlin godfather which I am glad that was. Sonny while driving today in the car I know you heard me play some of your favorite songs, from Seal, Madonna and Sade I play and listen to them for you. They bring me both comfort and sorrow at the same time. Right now I am in tears because you should still be here with us. But remember this sweet beautiful Brother you did not die in vain. Hopefully one day they will find a cure for aids. Till then I will pray that your happy where ever you may be, I know in my heart your an angel in heaven among many angels in heaven. Sometimes people say as years go bye things get easier I do not know for sure. Tomorrow I am going to post some pictures of you here so that my friends here may see the beautiful person you are. Okay my sweet brother as always again if I could climb the stairs to heaven and bring you home I would, if I could give up all my wordly possessions and live in a shack I would just to a few more moments with you. Please come to me in my dreams tonite. Love from us all your entire family go lightly sweet brother Sonny and rest in peace and always be my guardian angel here on earth to protect all of your family. Alll my love endlessly xoxoxoxox your sister Catherine

Yep, those yearly markers are always hard. Hang in there!

(((Hugs))) to you Catherine. I know and understand how difficult it is without our loved ones who have died. My personal belilef is that although they are no longer here in the flesh, their spirit is with us always. They live in our hearts each and every day. I also believe that although we cannot physically see them, we still continue to have a relationship with them. It just takes on a different realm.

You pay tribute to your brother each and every day with your signature line. I pray that God will bless you with peace and understanding...today...and every day.

I just want to let you know I understand I am crying while reading your post I lost my dear brother dec 23 a car accident he had became my best friend he was everything to me & my kids. ANd its been so hard I could never even imagined the pain my whole life I wanted to be just like him & looked up to him so much & we finally became extremely close we were together everyday for the last 6 months of his life. I dont have any brothers but not that it matters I mean you still lost him.

It seems to get harder everyday I realize more hes never gonna be here again. And I hope so much my kids realize what a great uncle they had & how lucky they were I am so sad to think someday they may not remember him I mean my youngest was 4 I know she will forget & that breaks my heart!!!

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Thinking of you today, Catherine (and snoopy24 too!). Hold onto your wonderful memories, and keep your brothers' names alive in your conversations with family. I know you both know this.

D

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Catherine and Snoopy24, as someone told me when my brother passed away in January, we all belong to a club that no one should have to belong to. My thoughts are with both of you.

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I just got a firm grip on reality....
Now I can strangle it

I lost my brother (my only sibling) about three months ago. I agree...its a club that on one should have to belong to. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him, and cherish the memories that I will always have with me...

It's so obvious that the love you had/have for your brother is so strong. Cherish all those wonderful memories and know that is what he would want you to do.

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Ladies thanks so much to all who wrote here on behalf on my brother Sonny I most sincerely appreciate it so much more then any words I could ever speak. Also to anyone here who has a long a brother or any loved ones my heart and prayers and thoughts are with you. I still want to post some pictures of Sonny, But I do not have a scanner and I have decided I will let my friend who does do it for me. I just want to some a few pictures of him. Peace to all . Catherine

I also lost my brother a few years ago and sometimes it seems like it was yesterday and other times it seems like it will be an eternity before I see him again. I know I will never get over it but I will get through it. I will never understand why he is gone, but that is okay, what I do understand is that he will always be with me, in my heart and in my soul. He left two little boys who look just like him and need to know how special he was to so many people.

Catherine, I know that I am late replying but know that everytime I see your sig line I think of your pain and I know how much you miss your brother. I say a silent prayer each time I see it, a prayer for all of us sisters who are without that big brother who protected us or that little brother who we protected. I believe we will see them again. If I didn't have that hope, the pain would be too hard to bear, wouldn't it? (((hugs to all of us)))

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GO NAVY WRESTLING!!BEAT ARMY!!!
RJB 3/18/60 - 5/22/04
We miss you, sweet brother
God Bless the USA!!!!! Praying for my Youngster son at United States Naval Academy, class of 2014!!

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usnamom your so correct, as I spoke before for me if I truly thought that my brother Sonny was gone completely I would not be able to live my life. I also believe so much as you do , that while he is not in the flesh with his loved ones, he is all around us and is our guardian angel in heaven to protect us until the day we are reunited. For you hon it must have been truly hard since your brother left 2 small boys. I am the only girl with 4 brothers and I was born first and then Sonny so we were very close. I am so happy I was able to have him in my bridal party. I was also happy that I decided to have my wedding video taped, because they interviewed everyone in the party. When it came time to him, the lady doing the interview her name was Darlene I remember it well, she asked him Peter his real name so are you a family member or close friend. He replied no I am her brother. She then asked some questions, but the one that hits close to my heart was when she asked. What was it like growing up with your sister, did you have the normal sibling rivials. To which Sonny replied no never, we were more then brother and sister, she was my best friend. Ok I am in tears you got me.. So hun thanks so so much your words gave me comfort. Peace and a sincere prayer to you and your family for your brother what was his name and his family.. Peace. Catherine.

My brother's name was Rick.

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GO NAVY WRESTLING!!BEAT ARMY!!!
RJB 3/18/60 - 5/22/04
We miss you, sweet brother
God Bless the USA!!!!! Praying for my Youngster son at United States Naval Academy, class of 2014!!

http://mylifeundertheabaya.blogspot.com/

usnamom May your dear brother Rick rest in peace in Gods home of paradise and bless you and your family as well... Peace.. Catherine

I should say my brother's name IS Rick. He is still my brother and he always will be.

Thanks.

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GO NAVY WRESTLING!!BEAT ARMY!!!
RJB 3/18/60 - 5/22/04
We miss you, sweet brother
God Bless the USA!!!!! Praying for my Youngster son at United States Naval Academy, class of 2014!!

http://mylifeundertheabaya.blogspot.com/

I agree usnamom when people ask me how many brothers or sisters I have I always say I am one of 5 children only girl and 4 brothers and that statement will always be true again my blessings to you and your family. Peace. Catherine